It feels like I've been dreaming for a long time,
I've wandered and wandered around for a while,
As if we made a promise, standing here in front of each other,
like that day from four season ago.

Those beautiful stories that we wrote down together,
those eternal promises that we prayed for at that time.
They're all coming back to me now,
and I don't think my heart can take it.
I've even restrain myself at the thought of you.
How has your one year been.

For a long time I've been living, having forgotten of you.
For a while, I thought I was doing fine.
However I started to realise as time goes by,
that I'm nothing to you.

At that time, if only we have been a little more mature,
If only we know how we would be right now.
I have no confidence in over coming these endless regrets,
so I've had to just repress them.
One year has passed like that.

Could your feeling perhaps be the same as mine,
will you give me another chance.
I know now that we can never part from each other,
the person I love and love again.

I wish we can go back to our first days,
to the beautiful, happy and loving days.
Those heart breaking stories and vain arguments,
just bury all of that now.
And promise we won't take them out again.
No matter how many seasons pass and how many years go by again.
I hope we won't meet like today again.

- Jessica & Onew,
One year later. ♥

hmmz, no PE today, Mr Tay never come. screw him.
planned where to go after exams with Chenyun and Engheng,
crapping here and there, gossip gossip. :>
English lesson was fun today, a bit retarded though.
add too much sugar for the bread pudding, a bit sweet uh.
shared chair with Jolyn & Yuanzhen. 3 people sit 2 chair.
Yuanzhen sitting in the middle, haaaa! she super epic.
tionged with Hayley, Chenyun, Yuanzhen. Magtan go tuition.
bought identical folders together, awesome!
Mac-ed, eat icecream and studyyyyyyy. homed with Chenyun.
and yeah, i bought new calculator, white one! haaaa.
can't wait for exams to be overrrrrr,
then can go shopping, swimming, playyyy, anythinggg! ♥

hmmz, change playlist. Finally. Joann is happy now. :>
English and chinese exams over, awesome.
Lumpy's craps are so hilarious, make me high.
I love Celsius. Chenyun, Magtan, Yuanzhen, Hayley!
tionged with Hayley and Engheng, saw Zixuan, Jason & co.
epic funny, crapping in the middle of tiong. haaaa!
heart-to-heart with Vanessa, my awesome babe. I love you.
We're not drifting, we just hang out less with each other.
but we're still as close. Friendship is not conquered by time.
These awesome people make me happy, always.
I don't ask for more, I'm happy to have them.
My happy pills, my diary, I love you guys. ♥

Some memories are meant to be forgotten.

hmmz, English exam. can pass jiu okay lerh! ;>
Jeremy crapps during exam, epic hilarious shit, hohoho.
tionged with Hayley, heart-to-heart, GIRLS TALK.
thankyou Hayley, I lovelovelovelovelove you, Celsius!
tmrw Chinese, need studyyyyy. need borrow chinese dictionary.
awesome, going to mug hard later. hmmz, sleep early too.
plus, facebook still no want let me change name. BLEAH.
andand, I want contact lennnns.

Simple words can break the entire heart.
I no like maths, drawing traffic lights during maths lesson.
and yeah, Sorry Lumpyyyyyyyyy. really, dui bu qi. :<
I love the rain, tionged with Teddybear. fishfish. homed.
BLEAH, tmrw Final year English exam. Jiayou.
need to study harder than normal people, because I'm lousy.
I hate myself, for being me.


I like this sign.

I no like facebook,
facebook no want let me change name, retarded. :<
FYE FYE FYE. need to studyyyyyyy. so boreddddddd.
I want go pooling, I want go malaysia, I want go shopping.
I'll do all of these after exams, I swearrrrr. :>
slept superduper early nowadays, great. I can grow taller.
Jiayou jiayou jiayou! wo ai ni, ♥

Final year exam coming. :< omg.
Just pray hard that I can go to Pure science course,
if not, I don't mind going to Combined science too. doesn't matter.
hmmz, I'm already think about what to do after exams.
hope exams will be over soon. Mugg hard people, Jiayou.

Sweetheart, thankyou for everything and anything. I'll mug hard.
I love you, really. ♥

Joann is mugging hard. trying to remember maths formulas.
Expansion and Factorisation.
(a + b)square = (a)square + 2(a)(b) + (b) square.
(a - b)square = a square - 2(a)(b) + (b) square.
(a + b)(a - b) = (a)square - (b)square.
Pythagoras' theorem,
(a)square + (b)square = (c)square.
Mensuration
Volume of pyramid = 1/3 x base area x height.
Volume of Cone = 1/3 pie x (r)square x height,
Curved surface area of cone = pie x r x slant height,
Total Surface area of cone = (pie x r x slant height)x (pie x (r)square)
Volume of Sphere = 4/3 pie (r)square
Surface area of Sphere = 4 pie (r)square.
Data Analysis
Mean (Average) = sum of values / number of values
Median = Middle value
Mode = Value with the highest frequency

ohmygod, I don't want to forget all these. please.
Jiayou, make me super. :>

I searched my wardrobe, and I found my dancing shoes, old ones. The ones that I wore during Secondary one SYF. I looked back to the times I first came for dance practice, it was so much fun. My first impression of Miss Goh, was that she was so strict that I was so afraid of her, but after knowing her slowly, I realise she was a nice teacher. I missed the times, everyone had tough trainings everyday because of SYF, and through our little chats, we got to know each other more, and got closer and closer day by day. Everyone shared the same interest, dreams and goals, everyone worked so hard, despite getting injured, we hanged on. Back then, things were so perfect, but now, things are no longer the same. After Miss Goh left, and the seniors graduated, there's no more unity, no more bond between the each of us. We splited up into groups, inside our own small chats, its all about unhappiness, all about complaints. I don't want things to turn out this way. I miss the times back then.

I've done science and maths 2008 exam papers, awesome.
I want to achieve 65 marks for science, 60 for maths.
I want to go pure science, with him. but, its still a doubt for me.
All I can do is to study, Joann is the awesome-est, hohoho. :>
I dug out all my science notes, trying to remember what I learnt.
Certainly, my mind is blank. empty. haaaa.
I want to be with you, no matter what, I'll do my best. ♥

" He is a part of me because, as he reads my words, he can feel what I feel and see what I see. He is there always in my mind, my heart and my soul. He is the love of my life that I can never let go. "

Wu mei hui, always come for lesson late, then end late. Expect us to wait for you. I swear I'm not going to do your English homework ever. Waste of time, just giving redundant homeworks, I'll end up failing English. I roll my eyes, because I dont want to look at your fucking face, sorry to disappoint you, my eyeballs never drop. What lousy teacher. Sucker. Give demerit big fuck, you who, principal uh. You say caning will cane uh. Unreasonable attitude, you not happy with us, we also not happy with you. Knn. Say we don't deserve your respect, what makes you think you deserve our respect. Not happy don't teach us luh, like we beg you must teach like that. Just fuck off luh. No wonder is new teacher, don't know how to teach then don't anyhow teach luh. Lousy.

PE, played floorball. damn awesomeeeeeee okayyyy. 2E is the awesome-est.
Mid autumn cum Hari raya celebration. ate mooncake, chocolates, pomelos.
superduper fun, ended at 8. tionged with Vanessa, homed.
Come home soon, please.

Chinese lesson, uses a crocodile to decide our fate. haaa.
omg, Science practical screwed, totally not enough time. :<
Epic fist guessing game with Engheng. effing funny, LMFAO.
went for ih ap, homed. tmrw school starts at 12, awesome luhhhhh.
I hate maths I hate maths i hate maths.

When I was six years old I met him in the playground and he came up to me with a daisy, just the one, and knelt on both knees and asked me to marry him. So I pushed him over then ran away. Two days later he came over and asked if he could play cops and robbers with me and from that day on we played everyday.

At 11 on my first day of Secondary school, I was so nervous but at lunch time he came to find me, and we sat down and ate lunch together. We did this everyday for an entire year. You were the first person I told about everything, about my crushes, about my lessons and about all the people I hated, and when I was 13 and thought I was the only one who had never been kissed, you offered to show me how, and by the tree in your backgarden we shared our first kiss.

At 15 we went to our first proper house party, and I got drunk. Even though I made a fool of myself you were there to help me stand strong. You didnt judge and you didnt make fun.

Over the next year we began to seperate, made different friends. I got my first serious boyfriend and you went through quite a few girlfriends. And then it got to May and that meant the prom. Everything had been arranged, I'd been getting my outfit for months and then the day before I found out my boyfriend had cheated on me. The first person I turned to was you. You turned up at my door with a bouquet of roses and a vintage 1950's car.

I laughed that night, I cried that night. We had glorious memories together, when everyday I would smile. Even on the last when your mother stood up, in the church in front of your coffin and began reading from your diary: "I saw you when I was six stood by the bench in a blue checked dress and daisy shoes and I needed to give an other daisy just because.... Because i loved you from that day on"

His wedding vows written the day after prom, that I will never get to hear.

I love this story.

HELLO, going backkkk to school tmrwwww, AWESOME.
I'm left with English homework, a piece of cake. :>
fever dropped a little, feeling muchmuch better.
Facebook is so addictive manz, superduper funnnnnnn.
I'm so gonna surf youtube again, hohoho. ;p
its just two more days, two more dayyyyyys, since 140210.
wo ai ni, ♥

hmmz, its been three days I'm isolated from the computer.
down with fever, struggling with homework. :>
going to watch the dance performance at night todayyy. awesome.
2 more days to finish my homework.

Friday, 10 September 2010

Hari Raya. overslept, didnt go for dance training, oopps.
went shopping spree with aunt.went vivo & greatworld.
bought FBTs, 3d star crystal puzzle, hair accessories etc etc.
homed, did some homework, but I still got tons of them.
need to chiong homeworkkkkk. ♥

Thursday, 9 September 2010

went for dance practice, at AVA room. superduper awesome luh.
freezing inside, get to use computer. hohoho. ;p
kinda slack, but funnnnn. facebooked.
horh horh, Vanessa. *winkz*
kfc-ed, saw Hayleyyyyy. went to Greatworld, then to her house.
almost fell asleep at her house, super tired.
homed. took long naps. :>

Tuesday, 8 September 2010

hmmz, went to watch match with Jieying at Queensway.
we took wrong bus, went there late. haaaa. :D
went Ikea together with Engheng, Jieying & Ray.
superrrr funnnnn. got a lot of dog paws, dog bowl, dog toys.
hohoho. ;p explored the whole Ikea. homed.
hearts, wo ai ni. ♥

omg, oral tmrw. shitttts, how to study for oral.
Yuannnnn say must talk more. talkkkkk rubbishhhhh. ;>
wo zhen de zhen de zhen de bu zhi dao how to study for oral.
watched Evan Almighty yesterday. superduperrrr awesome.
Gen, 6:14. The God is awesome, Noel is awesome-r,
the arc he has build is the awesome-st.

and yeah, went out today. went home early.

trying to figure out how to study for oral.

Jiayou for oral tmrwwwwww. hearts. ♥

thankyou for staying with me, and giving me strength, and hope. You stayed with me, assuring that I'm sleeping well and tight, letting me know you'll always be there when I closed my eyes, and when I first opened my eyes. You make me feel fearless, and gave me the courage to face and conquer every obstacles I face in life. You stood by me, and went into my heart. I'll never want to let you go. ♥

I'm scared of darkness, when I'm alone.
thankyou for making me felt secured, and safe,
and ensuring me that you are not going to let this happen again.
I don't want to be left alone, stay with me. forever. ♥

Its holidayyy, no time for playing, need to study for FYE.
but there's still time for computerrrrr, ♥
and afternoon naptime. hohoho. ;p

Friday, 3 September 2010

hmmz, chinese lesson is superduper fun. awesome.
epicness of Xuanyuan, Eileen & Breyl. full of rubbish.
and yeah, went for dance. Heart-to-hearts during breaktime.
scribbled and drew on notebooks and papers. haaa.
went to Vanessa's house, her brother is like so cute luh.
when I say " I love you", he will reply " I love you too. "
find Engheng, went for dinner, homed. ♥

i wantwantwant to go for the KPOP NIGHT. :D
hmmz, PE. volleyball is effing hard, but super funnn.
English lesson is full with rubbish. practiced for oral.
Kenner & Farish crapped around, Ernest retardism forfeit.
after school, oral exam. James came late.
ohmygod, fucking screwed luh, bleahhhhhhhhh. saw Kenner & co.
went gym to find Engheng. fooled aroundddd. hearts. ♥

wo ai ni. ♥

AWESOME teachers' day.
Happy teachers' day,
MrSuiSW, MsOngSK, MsQiX, MsGohQH, MsWuMH, MrYohanF, MsAuyong, MdmSarifa, MrsJamesCM, MsLimR, MsSawV, MsGohC.

Tuesday, 31 August 2010

Teachers' day celebration, awesome.
tionged with Lumpy, Vanessa, Isabel, Jaryl. bought mirror. ;>
went pool-ing at safra, superduper awesome. LOVELOVELOVE.
Lumpy & Vanessa have to overturn their shirt to go in. haaaaa.
saw Irfan & co. Lumpy almost exploded to the max.
went yakun, forgot to retrieve my ezlink card. hohoho. ;p
went to her house, couldnt stop laughing at her epic laughters,
superduper effing funnyyyy. people staring at us like crazy people.
greatworld-ed, went to find Engheng, played basketball.
alex and amos were super epic, hilarous shit.
Amos is singing nonstop, alex is crapping non stop. haaaa.
was lots of fun, homed. ♥